The habit of unhappiness

You would think, or at least I did, that if a person were unhappy - really unhappy - that they would know it. But from personal experience, I can say that this isn’t true. There was a time when I had been unhappy for so long that I didn’t even recognize it. I didn’t “feel” unhappy. I just felt normal. Which now when I think about it, makes me the most sad. That being unhappy could be normal. That I could be unhappy and not realize it, because by not realizing it, by accepting it as normal, I didn’t even attempt to change my situation, my outlook, whatever it took. What made me realize I had been so unhappy? I HAD to change my circumstances for my children’s sake, and then one day I woke up not feeling normal. I woke up happy. And I’m still happy - as crazy busy and in circles as I’ve been running these last weeks trying to keep up with all the areas in my life spinning off in different demanding directions - I’m still happy.

Though I need more sleep….